This is going to be a long rant, as usual.
First, let me say. I feeel disgusting. My friend came & my graduation is tomorrow :( I was trying to go to this party sunday and the beach monday. but now im stuck home..which is okay because baby said hed come chill with me & keep me company.
Prom was AMAZING. i looked beautiful and loved every minute of it.
okay. now about my life lately.
honestly, ive found something better than anything ive ever found before.
this boy is just GREAT. we connect on a wholeee nother level. its not a lustful relationship.. we have a deeper connection. Were a lot alike, in the sense that we like to have fun and are carefree, we see the beauty in life and try to enjoy it by all means. Were also different which makes me so attracted to him. the way he sees things, ive never even looked at it that way. we level each other out. He stands his ground, he doesnt change his mind/way of thinking because of anyone and i love that. hes determined, and hes the sweetest thing in the world. i love where his head is at and i love that when he makes a decision , its in his best interest, hes thought it through. Every moment i spend with him, i cherish it. because idk whats going to happen after this summer. I dont want any of us to go through any nonsense. but he tells me he can handle the fact that im leaving…hes very lowkey, funny, and i love that. honestly, i know im getting too attached but i cant help it..
When i say i am in a freaking dilemma, I dont know what to do. Grad bash is coming up, everyone is going. They are going. idk. That night will be amazing regardless of which one i spend it with but i already know who.
lol. Im gonna give him a lap dance that night. ;)